"Am I Nothing?"

I walked home hastily
and crushed my body on the chair
As I sit, I dive into the deepness of my mind
I searched and searched
"Who am I?"
Suddenly a word penetrates my mind
It says "Nothing"
I searched and searched again and again
The more I searched 'Anything' the more I find
'Nothing'

I run and run in my mind
sickness of nothing makes me blind
I am drown in the sea of poison thoughts
I killed myself more and more

Finally a bright makes up my memories
my 'nothing' is my 'everything'
to be and everything, I should be a nothing first
and from nothing I learn to be an everything
Everytime my nothing is found
my everything is also found
cause
nothing is the same with everything

My Singer Neighbourhood

You know, having a home near the traditional market or maybe modern market was really annoying. That's what happened to me. My family's house was near minimart (at the right) and traditional market (at the left). Really really noisy... At 4 a.m. until 12 a.m., I could hear thhe sound of people shouting, angkot drifting, and chicken was killed.... From 5 p.m. until 5 a.m. , you could hear the sound of radio that was played by the modern market.
You could see right, I have a 'silent' time from 12 until 5. However, there is another sound... from my neighbour..... He always took a bath at 6 o'clock and sings loudly. Owww..... I know he wants to be a star, but yeah..... he is disturbing everyone! He sang like emm.... (yah I can't tease people like that). Like a monkey lost in the city! (What's the meaning?).....
Yeah that's why,. I suggest you, if you want to have a home, you should pick carefully.

Watching at Cinema with Old Prendz

"kring Kring....." I had a message from Josephine (not Claresta) from my SD. She invited me for watching cinema at PVJ. She said that she brought her niece. Then I called All Bird, and invited him. Unfortunately, he doesn't want to come. Then I called Jansen, and he wanted to come.
The next day, we met at PVJ.We (Jansen and I of course) was a little bit late for the film. We then went to the room, and we realized that we would watch horror movie. Crazy right? Coming Soon is the film. And I watched... Afraid a little bit and Adrenaline was pumped into my head..... Weqs... Ater the film, we decided to 'walk walk'. Jansen was like a hungry pig, he always pushed me without any reason. He was crazy....
We stopped in front of Game Master. I filled the card with Rp 40000,00, and began to play. Rushingly, Jansen challenged me to play Panic Park. That game was a little bit crazy.... And we played vigurously. I saw another people watching us and laugh.... You know, Jansen and I was pushing each other until the machine game was moving from its first place! The second game was (I forget the name). We played (I forget the name) by throwing balls to the picture. We played together, and we lost for the first time. The second time, we won! WUeheehehhehe, and got 10 tickets. We then played ice hokey together. Really unfortunately, the hokey was damaged (I have 'ngegesek' the ticket twice!) and after about 10 minutes, we are told to play using the small one... I lost to Josephine (5 and 2)..... After that I challenged Jandoethick Cilag to play Panic Park again. And I lost! During the game, we met Ferdie, who was 'walking walking' with his friends (total 6 plus him). One of them was really great at playing basketball, 240 man! I played and just got 106....
After about 1 hour, we decided to 'walking walking' around PVJ. We visitted the secret garden (which then we were husshed by the security), and walked to Carrefour. Finally, Jansen's mother came out from Carrefour and I came with them (Jansen and her mother) to home.

3 Days without Parents

Last Friday, my father and my mother went to Bali. So I was left alone at home with one sister and one niece. You thought that it was a heaven under my leg right (I don't understand what I was writing)? No, it is not a heaven at all. I have to deliver my sister to school (with ojek), then take my sister back from school using angkoth. I also have to buy food for my niece and sister.
However, really heaven is in my head (why suddenly I speak about heaven?) my 'mbo' came home and helped me with the home. She cooked and did MCK.
Its worth it! You know, my parents came back on Sunday and brought me a new English novel, the Kite Runner, and also a good cloth I should say.....

Mistakes to my Father

As a human, we usually do mistakes right? Emmm..... as a human (I know some of you will protest), I have ever done mistakes to everyone too! My family, my friends, my teacher, all! Here is some mistakes I have done to my father..... Of course, he is important for me, because he has worked hard for my school, my needs...

1. Emmm... my first mistake is...... (so embarassing to say) let me describe it
   It was about 1 week ago. I was in hurry for school. My mother has shouted me from downstair to move faster. I brushed my teeth hurrily. You know, the wastafel didn't work properly, some of the dirty water I have just got out from my mouth was still stagnating at the wastafel, and unfortunately, my hand struck the glassy window in front of me. SOME of the tooth brush fell, and my father's teeth (gigi palsu) fell, and drown to the pool of dirty water from my mouth. I quickly wash it with new water, and after about 1 minute, I put it back, and my father went to the second floor and wear it...... disgusting...... and I haven't told him about it until now. So father, if you read this article, I am sorry...... about your teeth.....
2. The second mistake is when I throw my time and myself at the front of the computer, playing game too much. You always warn me about my time. Now I have just understand, I was throwing out my time there, and throwing away my potential, and his money. From now on, I promise my self, not to play too much. The time I used to use to play will be used for sports, or something that will develop my potential (of course playing guitar is part of it -> don't be angry oPah)

I think that's all biggest mistakes I have done to my father. I am sorry for them father.

Paskah at School

Uawww.... I woke up at 4.30 at morning, and make a big hoam! Owwh... what day is it? Owch..... the day we have to go to school. With hard feelings, hard body, hard movement, harsh words, hard legs and arms, hard bla bla bla, I prepared and went to school. At the school, bapaw sat on a table, and Janpig stands (I know the table would be broken if he sat on it) and they 2 blame me, because I was really stupid in dividing the jobs for mathematics project. Yeah..... I have to admit, I forgot Janpig and didn't give him any work. I am sorry abaw. That morning, I chatted with my friends, and helped to build the parcell.
I was really frustated. At first, I thought that we had to do nothing until 12 o'clock. However, the OSIS called us to the sport room at the highest floor, and we sat per class, and started the Paskah 'party' there. The 'party' was nice, however the place was very hot (probably because the presence of Jansen). I saw bapaw in sweat, and he looked like a boiled bapaw! I also saw steamed pork behind the bapaw.
At least the 'party' was over and we got back to the class. Some planned to watched movies (Fast and Furios 4), and some stayed at the class, drowning Queency to the water (Huahahahhaha! Not that bad actually, just 'sprayed'). I decided to go home after Queency was wet.....

The Slum Dog's Millionare

"Chell, chell, may I borrow an English novel of yours?" I talked to her from YM. She replied," Maybe slumdog millionare... YOu want?" "Yeah off course, thx a lot Chell..." Tomorrow, whe bought me the novel, and I started to read the novel a week after that day.
The novel was really amazing! It was about a man, who named Ram Mohamad Thomas, won a billion from a quiz! He was an orphan, poor, and never read any books or newspaper! He was taken to the court! Before the justification began, he told his lawyer about how he won without cheating!
He told his lawyer from who he was adapted, his best friend, and about immorality happened, how he got that name (consists 3 religion).
This novel is good, because it opens our mind about how cruel the world is, and about the immorality happened at the society. About friendship, etc. This novel hatched its morral lesson with a very good joke, good arrangement of story, and good tale!
THe first thing you see from the book wouldn't be so good to be read (bad cover, and low quality paper) However after you read at least 2 chapters, you will find this book really interesting and amazing!